Suddenly, I found myself being taken through a spontaneous meditation which unfolded in stages over the next fifteen or twenty minutes. I didn’t know what was happening or what I was doing. In a way, the meditation was being done to me. Each sequence of the meditation was spontaneous and unplanned. It was as though, in some mysterious way, I was being guided from within. I felt my arms opening and for about ten minutes, I stood with arms outstretched embracing the trees on the opposite bank of the river with my consciousness. I became very present with the trees, and quite literally took the energy and consciousness of the trees into me. I became one with the trees.

After about ten minutes, I walked slowly into the river. The day before, it had been raining and the river was quite high. The waters before me flowed rapidly over the rocks. It was difficult to gain a foothold. But I managed to walk into the river where the rapids were at their strongest. The water was about chest high or perhaps a little lower. I turned to face the force of the flowing river. Under normal circumstances, there was no way that I could stand against the rapids. I would have been swept away. But I had the trees within me. I felt incredible power and strength and stability within me. I defied the rapids. I defied the river with my strength and my will. I was in total inner silence. It was as though I was revealing my true self to the river. I felt completely exalted. I stood against the rapids for about ten minutes. Then without thinking, I took three or four strong strokes through the rapids to the deep swimming hole, which was lay just beyond.

Spontaneously, I dived deeply. The swimming hole was dark and murky and I had the sense that I was diving into the very depths of darkness. As I surfaced from the depths and arose out of the water, I let out a sound, which I can only describe as a primal roar. This primal roar filled the whole valley as it emerged from deep within me. It seemed like a declaration that I had finally arrived. I repeated this process three times., each time emerging from the water with a primal roar.

I then took three strokes forward into the heart of the rapids and surrendered to the river. I let go completely and was carried away. My eyes were closed. I was face down. I was carried over rocks. I gave no thought whatsoever to protecting myself. I could easily have been injured. I could easily have been dashed against the rocks and knocked unconscious. But I surrendered. I trusted the river completely.

I came to rest in a still part of the river about one thousand feet downstream. As I made my way to the riverbank, I could tell that I was in a completely different dimension. I was in an altered state of consciousness. It was my first experience of the awakened state, although I had no idea at that time what was happening to me. The sum total of my past experiences could not provide any kind of explanation for what I was experiencing as I emerged from the river.

Time had disappeared. I was overwhelmed with a sense of love and Oneness. I was overwhelmed with a sense of the sacred and the divine. Everything seemed perfect to me. Everything was alight from within. I was in a state of total bliss. Magic was in the air as I set off along the road that ran beside the river.

I had awakened into a world of extraordinary beauty and I felt completely intoxicated with divine love. I found myself saying “I love you” over and over again. I could not stop myself. I told the cows that were grazing in the meadow that I loved them. I told the trees that I loved them. I told the sky and the clouds and the river. Songs of love, which I had never heard before, began pouring out of me.

Everything I saw and heard was embraced by my love. I felt like St Francis of Assisi. I was consumed with love. I was devoured by love. I was intoxicated with love. Everything in existence was perfect. I was filled with a sense of wonder and amazement.

After a while, I began to receive a flow of insights and revelations about the nature of the human condition. Some significant keys to spiritual awakening were being revealed. My consciousness was opening up to the wisdom of the ages. It was an exhilarating experience. Many of these insights and revelations are included in my books.

Just then, the energy of the experience changed. The level of love and light in everything around me dramatically increased. I felt a Presence within me that I had not known before. Suddenly and without warning, God began to speak to me. Up until this point in my life, I had been an agnostic. I could not accept a God who had allowed so much suffering in the world. But this was a God of Love and perfect compassion. I could not tell whether the voice of God was coming from within me or outside of me but I wrote down everything that was being said.

As God’s message unfolded, I realized that I was being asked to do something. I was being asked by God to tell the truth about Jesus. And I was being asked to speak publicly about it. I did not know what God was talking about.
“I do not know the truth about Jesus!” I cried. “And even if I did know, I would be too afraid to speak about it publicly!”

“As you wish my beloved,” was God’s loving reply.

God’s response to me was overwhelming. I had never before experienced such a level of love and acceptance. This was truly a God of love. This was an allowing God. I was even allowed to refuse God’s request. Several days passed. I was still in an exalted state of love and bliss. I could still feel the Presence of God within me, even after I had refused God’s request.

I remained in a heightened state of consciousness for about three weeks. I was in the eternal realm in which time seemed to have no place. I was experiencing the deepest levels of universal love. I saw beauty and Oneness in everything.

Gradually the communications came to an end. I was being returned to a more manageable and peaceful state. It was time for integration. I visited several friends in the area. I then headed south to join a friend. I was still in an awakened state of consciousness, but I had come down from the peak of the experience considerably. After about three months, it suddenly stopped and I was returned to the level of consciousness that had existed prior to this whole experience.

I felt such a deep sense of loss. I felt a deep sadness, a terrible despair. My conscious connection with God had disappeared. On that day, my spiritual search began in earnest. I had to find out what had happened to me. I had to find a way back to the love and the truth and the beauty, which I had experienced in such full measure. I had to find my way back to God.

Three years would pass before I experienced the second awakening. It was during the second awakening that I opened into the eternal dimension of existence. It was during the second awakening that the truth about Jesus was revealed. It was during the second awakening that I entered fully into the experience of Heaven on Earth.