by Rupert Spira: In his meetings and retreats, Rupert Spira explores the perennial, non-dual understanding that lies at the heart of all the great religious and spiritual traditions…

such as Advaita Vedanta, Kashmir Shaivism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Mystical Christianity, Sufism and Zen, and that is also the direct, ever-present reality of our own experience.

The non-dual teaching suggests that the peace and happiness for which all people long lies within ourself, in the simple knowing of our own being as it essentially is, and is equally available to all people at all times. Happiness, being the very nature of ourself, is not a feeling that appears in experience from time to time, but is rather the background against which all experience appears from time to time.

In this simple, direct approach we investigate and recognise the nature of our essential self, that which we call ‘I’, and then explore how this new understanding may be incorporated into all realms of our experience.

The following dialogue took place at Rupert’s April 2019 retreat at Garrison Institute in Garrison, New York.

Questioner: When I ask myself the question, ‘Am I aware?’, I often experience a sense of gratitude, like something is being given to me. The awareness that I am aware quickly brings me to the feeling of being loved and provided for; it feels like a gift. It seems like there is a giver and a receiver, yet it’s like the giving and receiving are one.

Rupert: Yes, when a mind subsides into its essence and then emerges again from that essence, it emerges still saturated with its perfume. So the mind that emerges out of its essence feels as if it is replete with all of the qualities that are present in its essence: it feels full, abundant, fulfilled. The experience of gratitude that you express is the shining in your mind of the innate qualities of its essence or source.

That’s how these qualities are expressed at the level of the mind: gratitude, kindness, absence of lack, justice. So when you say you are giving to yourself, the essence of the mind is saturating the mind with its qualities. Of course, there is no difference between the mind of pure knowing and the mind itself. They are both ‘itself’. That’s why you feel it is you who are giving and you who are receiving.

Q: So that experience of gratitude is the coming back to myself?

R: Yes, it is a shining in your mind of the innate qualities of its essence. As the mind emerges out of its source or essence, gratitude would be one of its first expressions, because it has been given the jewel for which it has been in search all of its life. It has been bathed in that for which it longs. As it comes out of that, one of its first forms – its first feelings, in this case – would be one of gratitude.